I'm trying to slowly sip this drink. I think my insides are working overtime because i took some ex-lax last night and again this morning but maybe i havent been drinking enough for it to have loads of toxins to pass. I seriously want to throw up though so im just trying to slowly sip my drink. I wish the parcel im expecting would hurry up and get here so i can have a little sleep i think that might sort me out a bit. My tummy really hurts but i think that could be my period too.
I never felt like this before
Thursday, 26 August 2010
Day 1 - 15:00
I feel really sick. Not hungry sick - more like i want to collapse and puke my guts out sick.
I'm going to try drink some lemonade now but i'm pretty anxious about it
I'm going to try drink some lemonade now but i'm pretty anxious about it
26th August 2010 [should have been Day 6]
As you may have guessed i fucked it all up. Since my last post i have been eating spaghetti for every meal and peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwiches in between.
I'm absolutely gutted. Today i joined the forum at www.celebrity-diets.org
Back on it.
Let's go!
I'm absolutely gutted. Today i joined the forum at www.celebrity-diets.org
Back on it.
Let's go!
Monday, 23 August 2010
Day 3 - 00:45
I did really well with the shopping except the only lemons I found didn't look very ripe/juicy and despite picking up lots of bad stuff I didn't actually buy anything naughty.
However, on the way home I somehow decided to allow myself one treat so I went to the corner shop which was randomly closed for maintenance. I was pretty grateful but I knew I was going to binge when I got home anyway so instead of baking a cake I made myself some spaghetti bolognaise with lots of veggies.
Obviously I messed up (I had a peanut butter sandwich later too) but it could have been so much worse.
I feel very heavy and bloated so I think it'll prove to be a good lesson for me as I don't feel like eating at all now.
I bought some ex-lax the senna chocolate kind so I had one square just now to get back on the cleanse fully tomorrow.
I am not giving up
I may not be doing great but I'm not quitting that's for sure
However, on the way home I somehow decided to allow myself one treat so I went to the corner shop which was randomly closed for maintenance. I was pretty grateful but I knew I was going to binge when I got home anyway so instead of baking a cake I made myself some spaghetti bolognaise with lots of veggies.
Obviously I messed up (I had a peanut butter sandwich later too) but it could have been so much worse.
I feel very heavy and bloated so I think it'll prove to be a good lesson for me as I don't feel like eating at all now.
I bought some ex-lax the senna chocolate kind so I had one square just now to get back on the cleanse fully tomorrow.
I am not giving up
I may not be doing great but I'm not quitting that's for sure
Day 3 - 19:00
I'm so weak and exhausted and it's causing lots of trouble at home. Because my mum isn't well she's really tempramental so the slightest thing can make her go nuts. I think i may make a proper dinner tonight but continue with the cleanse. I guess i can't realy call it a cleanse at all more of a weird 'diet' if this is what i'm doing. I'm hoping there will be a better time to do it maybe next week.
Day 3 - 15:30
I must admit that my tummy feels flatter. I also have a white coating on my tongue which is supposed to happen so I'm taking that as a sign that I'm on my way to healing.
Current weight: 9st 1, 58.0kg
So that's 2lb loss by day 3 which is pretty damn good. I had planned on weighing myself on friday but I thought I'd take a chance that if I had lost then I would be stronger when I go shopping :)
Current weight: 9st 1, 58.0kg
So that's 2lb loss by day 3 which is pretty damn good. I had planned on weighing myself on friday but I thought I'd take a chance that if I had lost then I would be stronger when I go shopping :)
Day 3 - 15:00
I'm very shaky - just sipping my first drink now. It took me two and a half hours to dye/wash my hair and have a bath! It's not suprising I feel so weak because I haven't had anything in my system. I made this drink double strength because I felt so rough and I was on the verge of bingeing. I'm going to just watch tv for a bit and let my hair dry then have another drink before I pop to the shops. I'm worried about going to the store because I'd usually sneak a treat. Now I've written it I'm thinking 'why not, wouldn't be the end of the world' etc etc shit I don't know what to do because I only have two lemons so I have to go!
Day 3 - 13:30
I haven't had any drinks yet! I had a small portion of blueberries (about 80-100g)
I decided to quit waiting for the people around me to so the things they promise so I dyed my hair myself. Hopefully it's alright or I'm going to be pretty pissed.
At the moment I'm in a bath that's not even hot hating my house and thinking about baking brownies.
It's pissing down outside but I want to try go out in a couple of hours anyway. I want to try drinking the mix hourly so I get enough in me for today otherwise I'm really not on the cleanse am I?
Hopefully the hot water will come on soon and I can wash my hair and feel a bit better. Can't believe I haven't had lemonade yet. Feeling pretty sick too.
I decided to quit waiting for the people around me to so the things they promise so I dyed my hair myself. Hopefully it's alright or I'm going to be pretty pissed.
At the moment I'm in a bath that's not even hot hating my house and thinking about baking brownies.
It's pissing down outside but I want to try go out in a couple of hours anyway. I want to try drinking the mix hourly so I get enough in me for today otherwise I'm really not on the cleanse am I?
Hopefully the hot water will come on soon and I can wash my hair and feel a bit better. Can't believe I haven't had lemonade yet. Feeling pretty sick too.
Day 3 - 10:00
I'm still in bed which would be fantastic if I'd slept all this time. When it got to 4am and I was still awake I decided to watch family guy and listen to the rain. I managed to get a few hours after that. I'm sure this has nothing to do with the cleanse. My belly is rumbling so I'm going to have my laxatives and blueberries before my first drink.
I'm hoping today will be more strict and successful. No doubt I'll be updating lots if only to use my hands for something other than cooking/eating.
Wish me luck!
I'm hoping today will be more strict and successful. No doubt I'll be updating lots if only to use my hands for something other than cooking/eating.
Wish me luck!
Sunday, 22 August 2010
Day 2 - 22:00
I feel horribly full from the soup but I fancy tea and biscuits! I've decided not to go downstairs to put my bowl away or anything because I'm sure I'd cave. In the morning I'll have some laxatives first thing and probably the rest of my blueberries too to get them out the way and get some gooodness in me before a full day of lemonade drinks. I've had 7 today but I'm planning about 10 tomorrow
Day 2 - 20:30
I'm on my 7th cup of lemonade.
I'm finding it hard and having to constantly reassure myself and reaffirm why i'm doing this. I think that because of my depression and anxiety if i am able to do this detox fully i'll be stronger and feel a sense of pride that i have achieved something. It may not sound like much but it's a big deal to me.
Hating my living situation but seeing this detox as my first little step to a better life and finally one day getting the fuck out of this place.
My sister is making me feel so awful that i might just go to bed soon. DOes me a favour i can't eat if i'm not near the kitchen.
I'm finding it hard and having to constantly reassure myself and reaffirm why i'm doing this. I think that because of my depression and anxiety if i am able to do this detox fully i'll be stronger and feel a sense of pride that i have achieved something. It may not sound like much but it's a big deal to me.
Hating my living situation but seeing this detox as my first little step to a better life and finally one day getting the fuck out of this place.
My sister is making me feel so awful that i might just go to bed soon. DOes me a favour i can't eat if i'm not near the kitchen.
Day 2 - 21:30
I'm feeling very dizzy so I'm having a watered down soup. I'm kind of disappointed but it's miles better than the chip baguette with loads of mayo I was about to make!
I took two laxative pills earlier as I was reading my cleanse book and it was explaining that the laxatives rid the body of toxins and you're supposed to start taking it the day before the cleanse so I'm concerned I may have three days of toxins built up in me and it's freaking me out. I'm hoping to get out tomorrow to pick up a herbal alternative.
I took two laxative pills earlier as I was reading my cleanse book and it was explaining that the laxatives rid the body of toxins and you're supposed to start taking it the day before the cleanse so I'm concerned I may have three days of toxins built up in me and it's freaking me out. I'm hoping to get out tomorrow to pick up a herbal alternative.
Day 2 - 19:00
I am so stressed and I'm sick of being around people who make me feel utterly worthless. It's killing me that I can't lead a better happier life because I think that everyone in this world deserves to feel ok.
I want to cry and eat and eat and cry
I want to cry and eat and eat and cry
Day 2 - 18:00
I'm dreaming up all the different things i could cook right now and going a bit nuts. I'm so distracted i can barely hear the tv. I feel hungry but i know it's not real real hunger it's something in me that craves things that i don't need and likes to ruin the good things i want for myself like the fat monster inside me. Maybe if i literally picture it like that it'll help because i'm not starving, i'm not wasting away and the feelings that i 'need' all kinds of food is just not true.
OK back on it. Must keep going
OK back on it. Must keep going
Day 2 - 17:30
I am dying for a wait for it - peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwich!
It's killing me - so i made another lemonade drink
Squeezed the lemon
Added the water
Opened the cupboard to get the maple syrup - saw the peanut butter aaaarghhh
Got through it - added the syrup
Added the cayenne
Cleared the cutting board to make a sandwich
Freaked out and added cold water to the drink so i could get it down me faster
Shit but phew i still want it and my drink is too hot to drink so i'm using this to distract me. That was far too close. I'mnot sure if by eating blueberries is making things much harder but i'll finish them off later so from tomorrow it'll be 100% hardcore master cleanse. I'll have to go out tomorrow to buy more lemons anyway but i still don't know what laxative to buy. I'm seriously considering taking my mum's constipation relief pills but i think it's a bad idea. I'm sure i can wait until tomorrow but it's quite a walk to my local health food store and i'm not used to going outside so i'm quite anxious about that. However i'm hoping to dye my hair still today and have a nice bath so it should leave me feeling a bit better.
Now i want a toasted cheese sandwich so bad - errr but i'm vegan
Feeling a bit mental
Going to rink this then do my hair. Hope i don't mess it up becasue that will definitely send me straight into the kitchen to misbehave and i'll be gutted if i do.
I guess i have to remind myself that while this isn't going perfectly it is still better than i have managed to do before so i really have to stick with it.
It's killing me - so i made another lemonade drink
Squeezed the lemon
Added the water
Opened the cupboard to get the maple syrup - saw the peanut butter aaaarghhh
Got through it - added the syrup
Added the cayenne
Cleared the cutting board to make a sandwich
Freaked out and added cold water to the drink so i could get it down me faster
Shit but phew i still want it and my drink is too hot to drink so i'm using this to distract me. That was far too close. I'mnot sure if by eating blueberries is making things much harder but i'll finish them off later so from tomorrow it'll be 100% hardcore master cleanse. I'll have to go out tomorrow to buy more lemons anyway but i still don't know what laxative to buy. I'm seriously considering taking my mum's constipation relief pills but i think it's a bad idea. I'm sure i can wait until tomorrow but it's quite a walk to my local health food store and i'm not used to going outside so i'm quite anxious about that. However i'm hoping to dye my hair still today and have a nice bath so it should leave me feeling a bit better.
Now i want a toasted cheese sandwich so bad - errr but i'm vegan
Feeling a bit mental
Going to rink this then do my hair. Hope i don't mess it up becasue that will definitely send me straight into the kitchen to misbehave and i'll be gutted if i do.
I guess i have to remind myself that while this isn't going perfectly it is still better than i have managed to do before so i really have to stick with it.
Day 2 - 16:00
I'm finding it harder this afternoon. I had a bowl of blueberries for lunch and i was really close to making a sandwich so i've made another lemonade. I am on my fourth lemonade today.
I am glad i'm having blueberries once or twice for the first two days because i've been reading how important the laxative is and i havent had any at all. Apparently the laxative is crucial becuase that's how all the toxic waste is eliminated from your body! So tomorrow i'll have to try to get out and get some but i really don't know what to buy. I have some laxative stuff in the house but it's my Mum's so it's prescription stuff which i think would be too harsh for me to take. I really wish i had someone to ask
I am glad i'm having blueberries once or twice for the first two days because i've been reading how important the laxative is and i havent had any at all. Apparently the laxative is crucial becuase that's how all the toxic waste is eliminated from your body! So tomorrow i'll have to try to get out and get some but i really don't know what to buy. I have some laxative stuff in the house but it's my Mum's so it's prescription stuff which i think would be too harsh for me to take. I really wish i had someone to ask
Day 2 - 13:30
I'm off to make a lemonade drink then i'll tell you why i'm feeling optimistic again!
According to my earlier plan i should be having a herbal tea now but i decided to have another lemonade because it's 1pm and i don't think i've had enough calories etc in me. This will be only my second drink and i want to consciously drink more than yesterday.
I've been skimming through the book and while i can't copy pages for you i don't think - i can show you why i'm feeling good about it.
The section BENEFITS OF THE MASTER CLEANSE lists:
Better sleep - i find it difficult to get to sleep and wake up every hour or so. I grind my teeth, have terrible nightmares, suffer with restless leg syndrome and often wake up paralysed where i cant move for about 10-15 minutes
More energy - probbly due mostly to the little sleep i get but i always feel mentally and physically exhausted. So much so that if i felt i looked good enough to have a night out i would be too tired to go
Positive outlook - I suffer with depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I have no positive thoughts about my future and regularly find i am self destructive
Greater flexibility - I cannot touch my toes - not even close and sometimes i can barely lift my leg enough to tie my shoes! I have always wanted to try yoga for mental and physical health but am too embarrassed not only because of my weight but i think i can't bend enough and people wont be able to see the teacher over me etc etc
Weight loss - 'women often lose 1 lb per day' wouldn't that be nice! So even if yesterday doesn't count and i have blueberries again today then i'll have 6 clear days. If i could lose 6lbs or even 4lbs i'd feel a lot better probably enough to get into my jeans and go out on Sunday
Swelling and pain - My feet/ankles and fingers often get swollen (water retention i suppose)and i have back pain. My back pain has improved significantly since i bought a special mattress but it never goes away, i never feel free and comfortable when i move and my joints crack so much it's disgusting and people always comment on it.
Skin improves - My face goes through cycles of being quite shocking (pus filled boils and lumps everywhere) to being a combination of very dry and very oily at the same time to the extent that i cannot cover it with make up - it flakes and seems to highlight the imperfections. I have folliculitis on my legs which swells and gets infected, scabs, bleeds, and scars. I would never get my legs out in public even if they were thin and toned and i can't shave them because it rips the scabs off :( I have been on medication for this and it have improved a lot but is still pretty bad up close an it has now started happening in my arm pits and pubic hair which is incredibly painful and uncomfortable.
Allergies - I have terrible hayfever which can prevent me going out too. I also have other allergies that have caused my throat to nearly close up so when i'm out i always have anxieties that i will be exposed to something without realising.
These are not all the benefits listed just the ones that i find personally relate to me. So i'm sure you cannow see why this is so important to me beyone the weight loss.
I am not expecting miracles but i believe in trying something and giving it 100%. If you go into something withthe attitude that you expect to fail then chances are that you will. So i'm sipping my lemonade and channeling my POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE.
I'm going to keep looking through this book and hopefully i'll feel better and better about it and that will help me keep on track.
According to my earlier plan i should be having a herbal tea now but i decided to have another lemonade because it's 1pm and i don't think i've had enough calories etc in me. This will be only my second drink and i want to consciously drink more than yesterday.
I've been skimming through the book and while i can't copy pages for you i don't think - i can show you why i'm feeling good about it.
The section BENEFITS OF THE MASTER CLEANSE lists:
Better sleep - i find it difficult to get to sleep and wake up every hour or so. I grind my teeth, have terrible nightmares, suffer with restless leg syndrome and often wake up paralysed where i cant move for about 10-15 minutes
More energy - probbly due mostly to the little sleep i get but i always feel mentally and physically exhausted. So much so that if i felt i looked good enough to have a night out i would be too tired to go
Positive outlook - I suffer with depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I have no positive thoughts about my future and regularly find i am self destructive
Greater flexibility - I cannot touch my toes - not even close and sometimes i can barely lift my leg enough to tie my shoes! I have always wanted to try yoga for mental and physical health but am too embarrassed not only because of my weight but i think i can't bend enough and people wont be able to see the teacher over me etc etc
Weight loss - 'women often lose 1 lb per day' wouldn't that be nice! So even if yesterday doesn't count and i have blueberries again today then i'll have 6 clear days. If i could lose 6lbs or even 4lbs i'd feel a lot better probably enough to get into my jeans and go out on Sunday
Swelling and pain - My feet/ankles and fingers often get swollen (water retention i suppose)and i have back pain. My back pain has improved significantly since i bought a special mattress but it never goes away, i never feel free and comfortable when i move and my joints crack so much it's disgusting and people always comment on it.
Skin improves - My face goes through cycles of being quite shocking (pus filled boils and lumps everywhere) to being a combination of very dry and very oily at the same time to the extent that i cannot cover it with make up - it flakes and seems to highlight the imperfections. I have folliculitis on my legs which swells and gets infected, scabs, bleeds, and scars. I would never get my legs out in public even if they were thin and toned and i can't shave them because it rips the scabs off :( I have been on medication for this and it have improved a lot but is still pretty bad up close an it has now started happening in my arm pits and pubic hair which is incredibly painful and uncomfortable.
Allergies - I have terrible hayfever which can prevent me going out too. I also have other allergies that have caused my throat to nearly close up so when i'm out i always have anxieties that i will be exposed to something without realising.
These are not all the benefits listed just the ones that i find personally relate to me. So i'm sure you cannow see why this is so important to me beyone the weight loss.
I am not expecting miracles but i believe in trying something and giving it 100%. If you go into something withthe attitude that you expect to fail then chances are that you will. So i'm sipping my lemonade and channeling my POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE.
I'm going to keep looking through this book and hopefully i'll feel better and better about it and that will help me keep on track.
Day 2 - weigh in
current weight (22 August 2010)
9st 3lbs
58.9kg
1st goal weight (4th October)
8st 7lbs
Ultimate goal weight (1st December)
8st
I will accept 8st 3 by this time and 8st by 1st Jan
I am being realistic and taking into account how i have fared in the past when i've made these plans so while i intend to be at my goal weight by Christmas i actually have another two months before i MUST be at that weight as i'm planning a trip to Australia!
I'd love to reach my first goal weight by this weekend even if only temporarily just so i can go out on Sunday. I'm not bothered if i put if back on - i just want to go out for one day but after that i'm getting serious and thinking long term so i don't think it's too unrealistic.
First goal - lose 8lbs in 6 weeks
Second goal - lose 7lbs in 8 weeks
This gives me room to allow for less weight loss as time goes on and if i achieve this then it gives me a couple of months to work on really toning up without having to worry about losing!
This has made me feel a bit better about my long term objectives but we will have to see how this week unfolds first. I am not sure how much i will lose because i am not actually that big i'm just significantly begger than i used to be which i find distressing. I'm sure if someone was a few stone heavier than me they could lose a lot in a week by doing the master cleanse.
I'm off to read through my book now: THE COMPLETE MASTER CLEANSE by Tom Woloshyn
9st 3lbs
58.9kg
1st goal weight (4th October)
8st 7lbs
Ultimate goal weight (1st December)
8st
I will accept 8st 3 by this time and 8st by 1st Jan
I am being realistic and taking into account how i have fared in the past when i've made these plans so while i intend to be at my goal weight by Christmas i actually have another two months before i MUST be at that weight as i'm planning a trip to Australia!
I'd love to reach my first goal weight by this weekend even if only temporarily just so i can go out on Sunday. I'm not bothered if i put if back on - i just want to go out for one day but after that i'm getting serious and thinking long term so i don't think it's too unrealistic.
First goal - lose 8lbs in 6 weeks
Second goal - lose 7lbs in 8 weeks
This gives me room to allow for less weight loss as time goes on and if i achieve this then it gives me a couple of months to work on really toning up without having to worry about losing!
This has made me feel a bit better about my long term objectives but we will have to see how this week unfolds first. I am not sure how much i will lose because i am not actually that big i'm just significantly begger than i used to be which i find distressing. I'm sure if someone was a few stone heavier than me they could lose a lot in a week by doing the master cleanse.
I'm off to read through my book now: THE COMPLETE MASTER CLEANSE by Tom Woloshyn
Day 2 - 12:15
I have been so busy this morning that i'm only on my first drink of the day. I intend to make conscious effort to drink the lemonade every two hours and drink a herbal tea on the hour between lemonades. I think this should help me to drink enough of the lemonade and should hopefully help me to feel less hungry.
At the moment i feel hungry and could definitely eat but i don't feel the need to binge and i'm feeling pretty optimistic. I hope i can maintain this!
I found the book on the cleanse which i will have a good look through today. I know i need to find out about the laxative issue because i am not currently taking anything and while i feel that it's not causing me any harm i want to know the implications in terms of the efficacy of the cleanse. I definitely don't have any time to waste as i'm now just 6 days away from the 'big day out' as i'm calling it. Not going to this is just not an option. I don't want to be a shitty friend, i don't want to let my sister down, and i don't want to have another panic attack just because i can't fit into my jeans. So many people will be there that i haven't seen in years and while my friends have never commented on my weight gain to others it will be really noticeable if they haven't seen me since i was thin.
I'm feeling a bit crap now. Ugh i'll see if there's anything ov tv and try to stay away from the kitchen
At the moment i feel hungry and could definitely eat but i don't feel the need to binge and i'm feeling pretty optimistic. I hope i can maintain this!
I found the book on the cleanse which i will have a good look through today. I know i need to find out about the laxative issue because i am not currently taking anything and while i feel that it's not causing me any harm i want to know the implications in terms of the efficacy of the cleanse. I definitely don't have any time to waste as i'm now just 6 days away from the 'big day out' as i'm calling it. Not going to this is just not an option. I don't want to be a shitty friend, i don't want to let my sister down, and i don't want to have another panic attack just because i can't fit into my jeans. So many people will be there that i haven't seen in years and while my friends have never commented on my weight gain to others it will be really noticeable if they haven't seen me since i was thin.
I'm feeling a bit crap now. Ugh i'll see if there's anything ov tv and try to stay away from the kitchen
Saturday, 21 August 2010
Day 1 - 21:30
I am so hungry I don't know whether to puke or cry.
I had some blueberries earlier because I knew I was close to bingeing.
Currently on my fourth lemonade drink - I think I'm not drinking enough of the mixture maybe that's why I've not been doing so well. I might have one more depending on how long I stay up but tomorrow I'll make a schedule to ensure I never go too long without drinking the lemonade mix
Feeling a bit better after finishing the drink but I'll definitely be avoiding the kitchen if I can
I had some blueberries earlier because I knew I was close to bingeing.
Currently on my fourth lemonade drink - I think I'm not drinking enough of the mixture maybe that's why I've not been doing so well. I might have one more depending on how long I stay up but tomorrow I'll make a schedule to ensure I never go too long without drinking the lemonade mix
Feeling a bit better after finishing the drink but I'll definitely be avoiding the kitchen if I can
Day 1 - 17:30
FAIL
All I can hope is that my terrible binge has upset me enough to get my ass in gear.
I am so disappointed in myself.
Usually this is the point where I'd give up and just keep eating but right now I'm sitting in the car and my mum has left me holding steaming hot bread fresh from the bakers and I'm not touching it. When I get home I'll make up a cup of lemonade straight away
Ugh - feel hungry and horrible
All I can hope is that my terrible binge has upset me enough to get my ass in gear.
I am so disappointed in myself.
Usually this is the point where I'd give up and just keep eating but right now I'm sitting in the car and my mum has left me holding steaming hot bread fresh from the bakers and I'm not touching it. When I get home I'll make up a cup of lemonade straight away
Ugh - feel hungry and horrible
Day 1 - 13:30
I've had two lemonade drinks so far. Finding it really hard to go into the kitchen and not eat! I've had a few glasses of water too. Just trying to keep away from the kitchen so I'm having a wardrobe clear out as I'm desperate for space to attempt to fit all my crap into this tiny room.
Not doing too bad so far. I'm dying to eat but I'm not actually hungry. If you're feeling like this just drink water
Not doing too bad so far. I'm dying to eat but I'm not actually hungry. If you're feeling like this just drink water
Day 1 - 12:00
I was nearly half way through my soya yogurt when i decided to chuck in in the bin and pour myself a glass of water. Obviously i'm pretty disappointed but it was only a yogurt and it was soya plus i found the strength to get rid of it so i have to look at the positives. I'm sipping my water now. I'm going to clean my bathroom a bit then see if my mum fancies doing my highlights for me. There is no way i'm going anywhere with my roots like this and i need two colours put on so i need it done twice by next weekend. Atleast that will provide a distraction so i won't be able to get near the fridge for a bit.
I'll have another lemonade drink before we start on my hair.
I'll have another lemonade drink before we start on my hair.
Master cleanse - Day 1
Saturday 21st - 11:30am
I'm going to blog as much as possible to help me keep on track, organise my thoughts and keep on top of the cleanse. It will also give you a clear idea of what the cleanse is really like.
So far i've had one drink and i dont feel hungry. However this is the point at which i would usually cave and have a sandwich or something. I'm going to try having a glass of water then maybe some blueberries if i feel i'm about to make something else to eat.
I think if i can push through the first two days i can really do this. RIght now i'm feeling pretty optimistic. Gotta keep my PMA!
I'm going to blog as much as possible to help me keep on track, organise my thoughts and keep on top of the cleanse. It will also give you a clear idea of what the cleanse is really like.
So far i've had one drink and i dont feel hungry. However this is the point at which i would usually cave and have a sandwich or something. I'm going to try having a glass of water then maybe some blueberries if i feel i'm about to make something else to eat.
I think if i can push through the first two days i can really do this. RIght now i'm feeling pretty optimistic. Gotta keep my PMA!
Saturday 21st August 2010
I have seven days to shift something!
Today i really [please God] am starting the master cleanse. I will also be eating blueberries as a way of easing myself in (and not wasting the expensive fruit in the fridge)
So as i write this it's 10am and i'm sort of enjoying my first lemonade drink. I used the following measurements:
Juice of half a large lemon
Dessert spoon of maple syrup
A good shake of cayenne pepper maybe a third to half a teaspoon
In a large mug of just-boiled water
While i am not doing this solely for weight loss i do hope it'll get rid of a significant amount of weight to allow me just one day out next weekend. I am aware that if i do lose anything it will be mostly water weight which will probably return. I am keen to do this because i just never feel 'well' i have terrible skin that makes me so insecure that even if i was a perfect shape/size i still wouldn't go out anywhere, i suffer with terrible headaches and feel exhausted from the moment i get up until bedtime in which my sleep is fitful at best and filled with nightmares. I'm hoping that by relieving some physical problems and reducing stress it may be a starting point for reducing my general anxiety. If i have better skin and reduce my weight i hope i will be able to join some of the exercise classes offered at my university in a couple of months. I think i'd benefit hugely from yoga and pilates so this is a stepping stone to so much more.
I really really hope i can stick it out. In a strange way it might be a good thing that my head is killing because i heard that can be a side effect of the cleanse. I'm hoping i can push through. I'd love to hear about other people's experiences or advice to go with the cleanse.
Wish me luck!
Today i really [please God] am starting the master cleanse. I will also be eating blueberries as a way of easing myself in (and not wasting the expensive fruit in the fridge)
So as i write this it's 10am and i'm sort of enjoying my first lemonade drink. I used the following measurements:
Juice of half a large lemon
Dessert spoon of maple syrup
A good shake of cayenne pepper maybe a third to half a teaspoon
In a large mug of just-boiled water
While i am not doing this solely for weight loss i do hope it'll get rid of a significant amount of weight to allow me just one day out next weekend. I am aware that if i do lose anything it will be mostly water weight which will probably return. I am keen to do this because i just never feel 'well' i have terrible skin that makes me so insecure that even if i was a perfect shape/size i still wouldn't go out anywhere, i suffer with terrible headaches and feel exhausted from the moment i get up until bedtime in which my sleep is fitful at best and filled with nightmares. I'm hoping that by relieving some physical problems and reducing stress it may be a starting point for reducing my general anxiety. If i have better skin and reduce my weight i hope i will be able to join some of the exercise classes offered at my university in a couple of months. I think i'd benefit hugely from yoga and pilates so this is a stepping stone to so much more.
I really really hope i can stick it out. In a strange way it might be a good thing that my head is killing because i heard that can be a side effect of the cleanse. I'm hoping i can push through. I'd love to hear about other people's experiences or advice to go with the cleanse.
Wish me luck!
Saturday, 14 August 2010
Saturday 14th August
Not doing too good but i've done a lot worse
I've eaten so far today:
2 small bowls of cereal
5 doughnuts(!!!!)
tea + 1 sugar
banana
blueberries
strawberries
raspberries
I'm refusing to weigh myself
I have a primary deadline of August 27th so i'm hoping to do a day or two of fruit and veg then master cleanse hopefully but it'll be awkward as i'll have my mum home the whole time so i need to work out whether i can tell her about it or not.
I was supposed to go to a festival today and a gig last night but i was feeling too fat to go out. I went to the doctor last week and spent 20 minutes trying to squeeze myself into my biggest jeans :( which feels just awful.
I will weigh myself if i'm able to start the master cleanse an maybe take some before and after pics too
I've eaten so far today:
2 small bowls of cereal
5 doughnuts(!!!!)
tea + 1 sugar
banana
blueberries
strawberries
raspberries
I'm refusing to weigh myself
I have a primary deadline of August 27th so i'm hoping to do a day or two of fruit and veg then master cleanse hopefully but it'll be awkward as i'll have my mum home the whole time so i need to work out whether i can tell her about it or not.
I was supposed to go to a festival today and a gig last night but i was feeling too fat to go out. I went to the doctor last week and spent 20 minutes trying to squeeze myself into my biggest jeans :( which feels just awful.
I will weigh myself if i'm able to start the master cleanse an maybe take some before and after pics too
Monday, 9 August 2010
Monday 9th August
While i'm sure anyone reading this will think i'm very weak, unfocussed, i want to be honest. I'm hoping that at some point - no matter how many times i have tried to start over or make changes and failed to do so - that one day i will succeed! So if i can do it then anyone can. I have failed many more times than is written in front of you.
So here goes my plan as of today:
Three days of prep followed by master cleanse for 7 to 10 days
Because i'm building up to the master cleanse i want to eliminate breads and starchy foods [not all carbohydrates] and maintain a diet of mostly fruits and vegetables.
For breakfast i'm having a large banana chopped up with fresh blueberries and a squeeze of lemon juice.
Approx calories: 150
So here goes my plan as of today:
Three days of prep followed by master cleanse for 7 to 10 days
Because i'm building up to the master cleanse i want to eliminate breads and starchy foods [not all carbohydrates] and maintain a diet of mostly fruits and vegetables.
For breakfast i'm having a large banana chopped up with fresh blueberries and a squeeze of lemon juice.
Approx calories: 150
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