Day 2 - 13:30

I'm off to make a lemonade drink then i'll tell you why i'm feeling optimistic again!

According to my earlier plan i should be having a herbal tea now but i decided to have another lemonade because it's 1pm and i don't think i've had enough calories etc in me. This will be only my second drink and i want to consciously drink more than yesterday.

I've been skimming through the book and while i can't copy pages for you i don't think - i can show you why i'm feeling good about it.

The section BENEFITS OF THE MASTER CLEANSE lists:

Better sleep - i find it difficult to get to sleep and wake up every hour or so. I grind my teeth, have terrible nightmares, suffer with restless leg syndrome and often wake up paralysed where i cant move for about 10-15 minutes

More energy - probbly due mostly to the little sleep i get but i always feel mentally and physically exhausted. So much so that if i felt i looked good enough to have a night out i would be too tired to go

Positive outlook - I suffer with depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I have no positive thoughts about my future and regularly find i am self destructive

Greater flexibility - I cannot touch my toes - not even close and sometimes i can barely lift my leg enough to tie my shoes! I have always wanted to try yoga for mental and physical health but am too embarrassed not only because of my weight but i think i can't bend enough and people wont be able to see the teacher over me etc etc

Weight loss - 'women often lose 1 lb per day' wouldn't that be nice! So even if yesterday doesn't count and i have blueberries again today then i'll have 6 clear days. If i could lose 6lbs or even 4lbs i'd feel a lot better probably enough to get into my jeans and go out on Sunday

Swelling and pain - My feet/ankles and fingers often get swollen (water retention i suppose)and i have back pain. My back pain has improved significantly since i bought a special mattress but it never goes away, i never feel free and comfortable when i move and my joints crack so much it's disgusting and people always comment on it.

Skin improves - My face goes through cycles of being quite shocking (pus filled boils and lumps everywhere) to being a combination of very dry and very oily at the same time to the extent that i cannot cover it with make up - it flakes and seems to highlight the imperfections. I have folliculitis on my legs which swells and gets infected, scabs, bleeds, and scars. I would never get my legs out in public even if they were thin and toned and i can't shave them because it rips the scabs off :( I have been on medication for this and it have improved a lot but is still pretty bad up close an it has now started happening in my arm pits and pubic hair which is incredibly painful and uncomfortable.

Allergies - I have terrible hayfever which can prevent me going out too. I also have other allergies that have caused my throat to nearly close up so when i'm out i always have anxieties that i will be exposed to something without realising.



These are not all the benefits listed just the ones that i find personally relate to me. So i'm sure you cannow see why this is so important to me beyone the weight loss.
I am not expecting miracles but i believe in trying something and giving it 100%. If you go into something withthe attitude that you expect to fail then chances are that you will. So i'm sipping my lemonade and channeling my POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE.
I'm going to keep looking through this book and hopefully i'll feel better and better about it and that will help me keep on track.