I am dying for a wait for it - peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwich!
It's killing me - so i made another lemonade drink
Squeezed the lemon
Added the water
Opened the cupboard to get the maple syrup - saw the peanut butter aaaarghhh
Got through it - added the syrup
Added the cayenne
Cleared the cutting board to make a sandwich
Freaked out and added cold water to the drink so i could get it down me faster
Shit but phew i still want it and my drink is too hot to drink so i'm using this to distract me. That was far too close. I'mnot sure if by eating blueberries is making things much harder but i'll finish them off later so from tomorrow it'll be 100% hardcore master cleanse. I'll have to go out tomorrow to buy more lemons anyway but i still don't know what laxative to buy. I'm seriously considering taking my mum's constipation relief pills but i think it's a bad idea. I'm sure i can wait until tomorrow but it's quite a walk to my local health food store and i'm not used to going outside so i'm quite anxious about that. However i'm hoping to dye my hair still today and have a nice bath so it should leave me feeling a bit better.
Now i want a toasted cheese sandwich so bad - errr but i'm vegan
Feeling a bit mental
Going to rink this then do my hair. Hope i don't mess it up becasue that will definitely send me straight into the kitchen to misbehave and i'll be gutted if i do.
I guess i have to remind myself that while this isn't going perfectly it is still better than i have managed to do before so i really have to stick with it.
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