START TODAY

This is where i change everything. I don't need it to hit New Year's Eve to realise how much pain i have endured these past twelve months and i don't intent to wait until January first to make things change. I'm not expecting miracles but for someone who has achieved next to nothing in the past 6 years anything at all can be considered progress. So let's START TODAY

I do not intend to tell anyone about this blog it's just my space for my plans an my thoughts. I'd like to think that maybe someone will read it but either way i feel like it might help.

So just a few things i intend to do this year:

1. Pass my January exams
2. Take/pass driving theory test
3. Get a part-time job
4. Pass driving test
5. Save for a car
6. Go on a holiday
7. Go out socially atleast once a month - must wear heels
8. Reach goal weight
9. Join uni gym
10. Take yoga class at uni
11. Wear make up every day
12. Detox after exams
13. Get a haircut
14. Go to see a movie once a month
15. Clean out room
16. Sell stuff on ebay
17. Organise drawers and wardrobe
18. Talk to people
19. Make a plan to leave the house for NYE
20. Start to dress better

While these things may seem basic and pretty childish even, they are things i am incapable of doing. I don't speak to another soul at university and while i know that yoga would benefit me greatly i am far too shy to go to a class. When i buy my gym membership i can take any available classes so hopefully that will push me to do so. Perhaps when i have lost a little weight i will feel more comfortable going but i am scared i will stand out as i am shockingly unflexible; i can't touch my toes - not by a longshot. I have bought a yogalates dvd so i'm hoping i can use that to learn a little and hopefully then settle into the class easier. Only problem is my mum has two weeks off work so i am never alone in the house so unless i do it late at night it will have to wait a while. Next week i'm going to stay with my grandparents so if the weather is ok i am going to try to run daily as i can't do that here.
It will be a few weeks until i can establish any kind of realistic routine but as long as i do something atleast then i am happy. Just happy to be doing something.

Next time i'll try, for the first time in my life
It won't pass me by
Procrastinate, it can wait, i put it off, START TODAY!